A happy thought

I have this fascination with watching women put on make-up. It started when i was little, sitting up on the counter while my mother meticulously applied careful strokes of her mascara... watching her eyelashes mysteriously grow and her eyes start to pop. My mom always wore navy blue mascara... i like that about her. Everyone wears black, but my mom thought it accented her eyes more with navy...she is right. And since then my secret appreciation has grown.

It somehow makes me smile inside to watch a woman stand in front of the mirror, analyzing every flaw, every blemish, with disapproval and then... something magical happens. This intricate dance of sweeping brushes and glowing colours, arms and fingers moving in carefully calculated movements...soft and graceful. And when she's done, she will step back from the mirror... and smile. And in that moment as she takes it all in, she is pleased. She looks beautiful, she feels like a queen. Whatever happens after that doesn't matter because for a second, even just one second she looks at herself...and she is happy.

For two of my friends

 

My lovely girl Alana... i'm the autistic one, she's the adorable one. Thanks for still loving me pretty girl!

 

My pal Mike! Sarah and i stopped to visit him on our way home from Niagara Falls, he's playing his first show with his new music on Sept 29. Can't wait! 

Boom Baby

"Back to school, back to school, prove to dad that i'm not a fool"

Back to the little hole i like to call school. My consequent home away from home. The bain of my existence. I hope July comes fast, that's all i can say. It is nice to see everyone all together again though. I forgot how ridiculously funny my friends are. First day back and we're all gathered around the table at lunch discussing our usual perverted stories. So far classes are pretty lame but i know it's gonna pick up really fast so i should get myself into good habits now... yes, i should get right on that...

The Suck List

why my life has seen better days....

- all my friends are gone far away at school
- Nate left today for school in BC. I only found out last night.
- I mysteriously lost my job with no preamble or explanations.
- I really miss Andy and i wish that we were talking more
- I found out some not so good information about my brother
- my spontaneous holiday is cancelled because i neglected to remember that i don't have a passport
- my mom is in a bad mood which means the whole world is not safe
- i'm lonely
- i have to go in to work tonight at the job that as of friday i no longer have. Who wants to go to work when they know that they're not wanted there?!
- i hurt all over...in all senses of the word. My head, my heart, my back, my knees...

BUT... just so this post doesn't make you want to go and kill yourself i have good news. I achieved my new years resolution. I GREW AN INCH!!!! Ladies and Gentleman... I am now 5'5"!!!!!!!!!!!

Some pics from a concert

 
 
 
  

Long and brown or short and blonde. Which is better? You be the judge! 

Adventures into Hardcore....Music

So this weekend was the (supposed to be) big welcome home party for sarah. Half the people i invited didn't show up. Even worse, most of the people that said they were coming didn't even come! But we still had fun eating and playing darts and fooseball and eating and talking and laughing and eating. We have so much food left over!
At least her party wasn't a total bomb though. We had 3 suprise guests and my entire dad's side of the family...well...his immediate family...minus two of my cousins...and i'm rambling...

So anyway, party saturday, potluck at church on sunday and then.... roadtrip to hamilton with Tyler Cox to see a hardcore punk/some metal concert at...the UNDERGROUND.
It was an adventure and a half getting there. We had crappy directions and the map we had was useless so we were pretty much left to our own devices. Then, after about an hour and a half of driving around, we finally found the place he thought it was supposed to be at...and it wasn't there! So then we had to try and find the underground, while navigating around hamilton's one way streets. We ended up just parking the car somewhere and walking around. Funny story... the people we endedup asking for directions were actually one of the bands that played that night. hahaha...ah makes me laugh.
The place was kinda weird. Dimly lit basement with glowing red accents and mutated mannequines hanging from the ceiling. But overall it was a fun night. I'm still not set on that kind of music (sorry Ty) but i did have a good time.
Would i do it again? Sure, as long as i'm the one with the directions!
hahaha

It's been interesting...

My life, as those of you that know me can can attest to, is rarely ever boring. Despite my constant replies of "nothing" being new, SOMETHING is always going on. I feel that i can pretty safely back up that saying "it never rains, it pours". Life for me is full of constant peaks and valleys. Although more often then not, the rough times and bad stuff gets lumped together while the really amazing things are spread out between.
The past year and a half of my life has been the most intense testament to me that i really am alive...and i am ONLY human. I have experienced the greatest joy and the most gut-wrenching sadness that i have ever felt in my life to this point. There have been days when i woke and the first thing i did before i even opened my eyes was thank God for blessing me so richly and giving me such happiness. There have been days where i didn't even want to open my eyes because the pain in my heart was so great that i didn't think i would be able to make it out of bed.
I have cried, bled, laughed, danced, hid and run more times than i can count. But i have learned a lot.
I feel like i want to say something intensely wonderful and inspiring, but all i have is this..."nothing".